Back to childhood
The word God meant fear for meYou were the god that loves me when i was polite
And who sends me to hell when i sinYou were the god whom i ask for a toy
Gives me back a punishmentYou were the same god
That my father told me to listen to your words
And beat me for not cheating in the exam

Churches in Sunday,
I saw hundreds of people praying inside
Looking like angels
They were the same people outside
Looking like monsters

If there is a god they are worshiping inside
I don’t want to worship this god

At eleven years old, i heard a word that changed my life
God is love !
Love? God is fear, evil
God is your father !
Father? God is the controller, the tyrant

Growing up, i started to read your words
Love, peace and grace in the bible
Hate, cruelty in the real world
Are you a liar god?

Growing up, i started to find you
Find you in the love of a teacher for me
Listen to you through a verse in the bible
See you in my achievements everyday
Feel you i a hug of a friend

I decided, that all my life is for god
Nothing can separate me from god

But it was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell i’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed
The dream i dreamed

Now i’m trying to go back to you
But it seems you are so far

I have nothing but to hold on to your promises
God’ s love knows no limits
And no boundaries
It simply has no end !

Open the eyes of my heart god
I want to see you

Marise Akouri

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